Hey, you know what would be awesome? If I found a man. It's not very likely considering I don't get out much. It's not like one is going to come to my door and propose.
My priorities are changing. I used to want a man with long dark hair and tattoos and confidence bordering pathological narcissism, most likely in a band. I wanted danger and intrigue.
Now, I want someone to be good to me. Kind, reliable, loyal, willing to take care of me in an old fashioned kind of way and I would do the same for him. Mentally, I'm in a really good place in my life. I'm stable and secure in myself. I feel I could provide above and beyond what a worthy man would expect of me.
And I'm 28 years old. I spent the last fifteen years of my life partying and being reckless, and now I've reached an age where I feel I would like to be married and bear children in the next couple of years.
Yeah, I still want to be a rockstar. But I want a family. I want my other half. I care less about being different and exciting and more about building a solid foundation with someone I love.
So that's where I am right now.
I'm not meant to walk this earth alone. I need a man to guide me, encourage me to be a better person. I thought I had that recently, but I was idealizing the entire situation. Things were great for a while, and then seemingly out of nowhere, he completely lost interest. It is sad, but I've been through much, much worse. And no one can ever take hope away from me.
Goodness, reading this felt like I was reading my own story (but searching for a woman rather than man haha). I like the introspection you show here. I think we're all destined to find our soul mates and kindred spirits. I hope you don't mind the random visitor to your blog :) I'm glad I stumbled upon it.
ReplyDelete~Keith