For being 'selfish.'
Besides the fact that I made a huge mistake dating this total doucher, I really haven't gone out much in the past few years. Excuse me for wanting to come out of my cave and learn to trust people again. I call it socializing, others may call it partying, and then point the finger at me (during a break up, where I am already down and humbled) for not doing something more "constructive" with my life. I'm proud of how far I've come. It's okay for me to have a good time with friends. It's healthy.
I have to take on more and more responsibilities, at a slow pace. I attend class. I have my own personal issues that almost resulted in my failing, once again, to complete something. Yet, I am still there. I'm not giving up on myself.
I'm going to do what I feel is right for me. It's completely unfair that I have to deal with someone I love telling me that I should be doing something else, something more; That if I can go out and "party," I should be giving back to this world that, so far, has taken everything from me.
I respect the concept that pulling myself out of my own self may ultimately benefit me, but that didn't seem to be the intention of the conversation I just had. I feel I owe it to myself to build myself up and learn to live my life, and to discover what that is for me.
